Yesterday all of my girls were over and I told them that so much was changing: Jenna was engaged and Annie had a baby! They were shocked by both of these things, which is just funny to me. Its great and scary to think about all of these changes though. Jenna is going to live with us and be planning her wedding, and then she's going to be married to Kyle forever. We saw her beautiful ring last night and laughed about how you wait so long to be engaged...and then you're engaged. I imagine its a weird, great, scary, overwhelming, not sure what to do next feeling. I'm really excited to live with Jenna while she's planning her wedding and walk through all of that with her. I love weddings!
Last Wednesday, Jon and Annie had baby Raelyn. Sarah, Mary Ellen and I got to go to the hospital Wednesday evening and hold brand new baby Raelyn and I loved it. Every second of it. Of course I loved it because I love babies, but it was more than that. Everything about being there just felt so real. Annie was on lots of drugs and was really tired and Jon was so good at just BEING there. It literally felt like the room was overflowing with love. It was as if we were sitting in a room and everyone there was completely content. I could have stayed all night. Last weekend (after Shauna's car got stolen!) we took dinner to the Houghtons. They had just gotten home from the hospital earlier that day and the house was bustling with people. Annie's parents were there, Kylie was hilarious, Nick was his usual happy self, the Butler game was on tv, and they were more than okay with Shauna, Sarah and I joining in on their party. Again, I could have stayed all night. I kind of wanted to actually. We were sitting there, laughing with Annie about pumping with the windows open, watching Kylie dance and pose for the camera, seeing Jon serve Annie without even thinking twice, watching Nomeno clean, and loving the chaos and the people and the community, and I couldn't help but think THIS is what I want. I don't want this to come across as me wishing for the future or not living in the present. I LOVE my life right now. I think I have the best life of anyone I know and I am thankful for it constantly. Watching Jon and Annie, holding Raelyn, laying on the floor while Kylie sprayed an entire bottle of detangler in my hair...I felt overwhelmed with the prayer that this, God, is the desire of my heart. I want to have a baby that was created and grew in my body for nine months and finally get to hold that beautiful gift in my arms. I want to sit in the hospital and feel content that there is no where else I'd rather be, with my husband who I can't imagine life without. I want to have kids running around my house and invite people in and then want to be with them so much that I stay in the living room to breastfeed instead of going in the bedroom. I want a marriage that works really well. This is the desire of my heart and my prayer. For sure.
For now, my life is fun. Yesterday all my girls came over and we talked about Wilderness, which is one of my favorite things EVER to talk about! (This post includes all of my favorite thing...Wilderness, weddings, and babies!) I like having all of them together. Then I went to see Tangled with Mary Ellen. She smiled through the entire movie. We got to come back here and talk and cry and I'm just really thankful for her and really, really, really glad she is part of my life. Today, Sarah and I are hanging out. I have fun friends who are really great.
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